So I am…..

So I am not the most dapper person in the room

I need countless guidelines about how to groom

According to standards that my social circles approve

I have so much to learn and so much to prove

The circle just widened with WhatsApp and Facebook

Now half the world decides how I should look

 

So I am not the most well-versed person in gossip of the day

I need innumerable advices about how to join the fray

According to people who know everything inside and out

I don’t recognize the names they know their history and whereabout

The need just increased to oversee friends and frenemies

Now half the world is scrambling to keep apprised busy as bees

 

So I am not the most conventional person to follow traditions

I need unbounded instructions to reroute the aberrations

According to rulebooks and rubrics made by overlords of the guild

I am expected to toe the line or my fate can be sealed

The grip just grew stronger to turn everybody into clones

Now half the world is in matrix mode via laptops and phones

 

So I am not the most cleverest person exceeding expectations

I need infinite training to match standards of social sensations

According to masters of all we routine jacks are so hopeless

I don’t enjoy climbing and social ladders can be steep and ropeless

The effort just got laughable to please one million and some

Now half the world is happy in the belief that the other half is dumb

Change

I am changing every day I don’t even realize

Little learnings add to my repertoire making me wise

I cherry pick the lessons because some are awkward and hurt

I sometimes skip the schooling and keep my reactions curt

Yet at the end of each beginning I have made an impression

So many times I wish I could rewrite the script for each session

 

The world is changing every day and it’s not just somatic

Some changes are so subtle they almost seem automatic

I see the people around me change conduct and character

I sometimes miss the indicators and gatecrash the barrier

Yet at the end of each beginning I have learnt to be wary

So many times I wish I could expel the emotional baggage I carry

 

Relations are changing everyday heart and mind are fine-tuning

Some require care to nurture some need patience and pruning

I try to sharpen my social skills so as not cause upsets

I sometimes fail at keeping up now gadgets govern mindsets

Yet at the end of each beginning I have some take aways

So many times I wish I could be forgiven for having feet of clay

Byzantine roads

Strength is not in simply bearing the pain

Strength is not in strong outpourings with disdain

Real strength lies in patience beyond compare

Only God by your side and a world to dare

 

Patience is not in simply suffering injustices

Patience is not keeping quiet against prejudices

Real patience lies in your duty to do the right thing

Only God by your side and David’s sling

 

Duty is not in simply doing what is told

Duty is not remaining meek and refraining bold

Real duty lies in ability to defend your integrities

Only God by your side and constrained agilities

 

Integrity is not in simply radiating attitude

Integrity is not in choosing artless latitude

Real integrity lies in the balancing of obligations

Only God by your side and no compensations

 

Attitude is not in simply cherry-picking a side

Attitude is not reflected in power prominence or pride

Real attitude lies in the aptitude to remain humble

Only God by your side and obstacles for to stumble

 

Humility is not in simply deeming you are unpretentious

Humility is not in crediting your own goodness

Real humility lies in your actions and how your treat others

Only God by your side and the ego still bothers

 

Goodness is not in simply bestowing wealth as a favour

Goodness is not broadcasting your virtues to the sphere

Real goodness lies in soundless endeavor

Only God on your side and humbled by His power

Realizations

One day we will realize the need for kindness in life

In the midst of opinions judgements and expectations rife

Where hope will be exhausted and optimism goes cynical

There kindness will cut through the veneers of sheer clinical

 

One day we will realize tenets that should be truly treasured

Intangibles like integrity and morals cannot really be measured

Where honesties will be compromised and truth is at the alter

There your tenets will come in handy and not let you falter

 

One day we will realize the hurts and pains we exchanged

From holding grudges to forgiving friends these emotions ranged

Where understandings will diminish and care is not a concern

There these hurts and pains will teach you what lesson to learn

 

One day we will realize how far we have come in our journey

That family and friends might join you but God is your attorney

Where experiences make you bitter and familiarities can upset

There the road traversed will impact your credits and your debt

 

One day we will realize how essential it is to look after our self

Mind and body spirit and soul are not bought off the shelf

Where heartbreaks need repair and life is not always fair

There self-care will fuel sustenance and provide ability to bear

 

One day we will realize how futile our feuds and jealousies are

That day we will rephrase our mission statement and raise the bar

Where prejudgments are norm and intolerances become routine

There this consciousness will awaken and the real you will be seen

My learning curves

My conscience is very soft-spoken it gently knocks

My emotions create such din and drama it rocks

My circadian circus

And then the conscience goes quiet awaiting its turn

No “I told you so’s” no jibes no sarcasm no heartburn

I no longer stress

 

My attitude is unsharpened it has not learnt finesse

My honesties create issues with my mind and its peace

My responses conflict

And then the attitude goes numb wondering what went wrong

In a realm full of twists and turns verities are sold for a song

I begin to reflect

 

My countenance is very trenchant it cannot conceal

My appendages create chaos I don’t know what to feel

My social skills lack

And then the countenance goes expressionless confused

When it required deceit and disguise my mind had refused

I face the flak

 

My disposition is very inclined to retreating in its shell

My interactions with the outside always ring some bell

My trepidations surface

And then my disposition goes silent anticipating turmoil

Some books some friends and acquired wisdom provide foil

I survive the race

 

My thought process is very slow it cannot fathom people

Those delicate nuances in untold stories are like steeple

My equilibrium tips

And then my thought process goes apprehensive sensing dilemma

I am trying to be politically correct I am not getting it by far

I must close my lips

Thin lines

It’s not about having time. It’s about making time

For others for yourself for unseeable things sublime

Did you detect the dew on those roadside bougainvillea

Should you call someone today and say how much you missed her

Will you finish that book your kids recommended

Or would you rather fish for excuses and then defend it

 

It’s not about creating happiness. We often overthink it

There is something good in every moment. Find it and keep it

Happiness is an inside job. If you let someone else decide

Then that’s the limit of cheerfulness by which you must abide

Focus on hurt and you suffer it only begets resentment

Be the reason someone smiles today and experience contentment

 

It’s not about perfection. It’s about consistency and passion

Don’t trade your authenticity for approval steel your intention

It’s so easy for them to sit on the sidelines and criticize the game

When they are not even playing it yet keep passing on the blame

Your life is yours. Own it. See – that’s the thing with tables

They always turn around so that you can dispel fears and fables

 

Its not about reaching destination. The journey gradually molds clay

Little by little day by day what is meant for you will find its way

Work hard in silence then let success be your noise

You get what you work for not what you wish for. It’s your choice

Be grateful for your struggles they lead you onto your strengths

Beware of negative thinking and thinkers that can cause indents

 

 

Ego approved

Ego may have many a negative connotation agreed

Sometimes it tends to override other opinions indeed

If trampling upon feelings is not a good deed

Then being trampled upon will also make you bleed

 

There lies a thin line between ego and self-image

Where we use our heart and head together to manage

The moment you are compromised and taken for granted

Then we are not talking ego its self-worth that is daunted

 

Humility is so vital it must be mandatory

Etiquette entails knowing your thankyou & your sorry

The one you are extending such courteous behavior to

Then must realize and acknowledge this amicable side of you

 

A disposition full of ‘I’ is not a welcome one

A temperament easy to crumble is neither done

Clarity not compromise is what attitude is about

Then in your own strength you will never have a doubt

 

 

Angst approved

If someone instigates and intends to cause offence

Remember silence is your best defense

If someone deliberately tries to bring your reputation harm

Respect their opinion and just keep calm

It is for them to solve their issues you cannot resolve

If they continue futile affront you simply absolve

 

If someone tells you how you are getting things wrong

Remember free advice is available for a song

If someone insists on doing your thinking for you

Respect their effort yet keep your distance too

It is for them to understand how to fit in your shoes

Your problems are unique to you they may have no clues

 

If someone believes they know more than you ever did

Remember knowledge is a slippery path so easy to skid

If someone feels superior on the basis of who they know

Respect their self-worth each one will reap what they sow

It is for them to mature and take their supremacy in stride

You can continue to exhibit your low-profile humble side

 

 

Stinginess approved

Be stingy be tightfisted with your life.

Own the journey. Survive the strife

Each ethos charted with head held high

Each breath accounted for when you die

 

Be stingy be ungenerous with your scruples

Own your faith. With belief and love bliss quadruples

Each tenet you subscribe must be applied

Let the epitome of truth and justice be your guide

 

Be stingy be sparing with the words bespoken

Own your responses. Each word is a token

Of your character and credence. Your attitude and action

Spoken word has repercussion practice precaution

 

Be charitable with your material possessions

Own your generosity. Imprint the correct impressions

Wealth is transient. It won’t accompany in the grave

What you give away will earn you more than you gave

 

Be big-hearted with your feelings and grudges

Own your compassion. Forgive the prods and nudges

When you let go you actually set yourself free

Extra baggage always comes with a very hefty fee

 

 

Care approved

Care cuts deep it seeps into the soul

you can never again become one whole

a part of you is given away unwittingly

you can watch yourself agonize consciously

 

When grief is revealed only by the eyes

when the smile on the face so often belies

the feeling within the spirit keeps on trying

to face truth in the face while continually lying

 

When the care bestowed remains unrequited

the heart still does not feel hurt or slighted

it slices across veneers of physical proximity

like the presence of divinity in a Sufi’s propinquity

 

Not one person perceives it so silently it bleeds

not one emotion out of place so dutifully it heeds

just one look one word one effort of reciprocation

can revive dead life-force without resuscitation